1:50 PM Thursday, November 22, 2007
for those of u who think YOU are busy, here's a recap on what i've been doing these past few mths:
-a million sch projects.
ouh, trust those pple who said designers lead a busy life. so much to do in so little time! starting to regret abit for chosing this course, but i still think its better than engineering.
-pizza hut and art friend.
yes, i am juggling 2 jobs. im keeping the art friend job, since the pay is high, but its too fucking boring so i took a 2nd one. but come to think of it, pizza hut sucks as well. not the work or pple, just that im always given closing shift. and i cant do tt thanks to my WONDERFUL parents.
-Bukit Batok Driving Centre.
im not gonna tell u guys what im taking or wad stage im in, but trust me when i say its taking up a hell lot of my time.
-soccer.
fushan trainings is on weds, and we have a match this sat. not forgetting playing under blocks to improve our skills. and also in sch sometimes.
-%&$#ing parents
seriously, even with all this, i think i can still cope well but my parents are always fucking restricting me for EVERYTHING. like seriously, its fucked up how bad my situation with my parents is. i mean, yea they're not getting a divorce or anything, its not that kind of problems. but sometimes i just feel so fucked up. i go home, and no one talks to me. they only time anyone does is when my parents wanna scold me for sth.
and heres the best part, they still expect me to come home early everyday.for what? so u can fucking spite at me? i lie to my parents everyday. yes everyday. when im going out, i'll just say i have a project in sch. and the fact that i need to seriously suck balls.
if u tink im exaggerating, and that my parents just love me blah blah blah, heres an example. on wed i said i wanted to play soccer at rp(i didnt, it was actually fushan, but i had to say it was a sch match or i cudnt haf gone-.-), and wanted to cycle there. and guess what, he wudnt let me. reason: dangerous. FROM MY HOUSE TO RP. 1 mrt station. Dangerous???? urrrrghhh.
and dun let me start on the bike license. ok i know its dangerous and stuff, but at least trust me enough to know i wun do anything stupid. i've never really done anything really stupid my whole life, like drinking or getting into gangfights. that's got to count for sth. but then they dun pay attention to good things ive done. only the bad, so they can shout at me more.
seriously, i have tried to see the scenario from their point of view, putting myself in their shoes. and i still dun get the way they're treating me. for example, i wudnt restrict my son to take riding license. thats could mean he would take behind my back. and since i wudnt noe abt it, it cud risk him getting into accidents because he was not properly guided,and doesnt receive blessings from his parents. instead, if thats wad my son really wants, i'll just let him have it. but i will try to guide him along his way, telling him whats right and wrong. and at least, i know what my son is doing.
arghhhh. such a lengthy post to rant. this is quite a low moment in my life, but still sulking's not gonna solve anything. i just hope things get better for me=)